Sunday, October 12, 2008

My New Life

Pretty intimidating title right? My new life is also rather intimidating I must say.

So get ready for a crazy update that will include some of what I've been going through in the last couple months. I also apologize for this new post taking so long to write. I've just been far to busy to do anything concerning free time.

So I'm a college student now!!! Yes, it is true. I graduated early from high school which most of my friends already know, but I'm also going to Folsom Lake College and am attempting to get my AA in Journalism. My life has taken a turn towards the insane category as of late. I'm not only going to college and taking 12 units, but I am also working part time at Trader Joe's still. With these two somewhat exhausting things in my life I am trying to keep from burning out.

College is insane. Yes this is what I have to say about my first semester in college. I love it. I hate it. I am learning allot. I am also missing allot. I am currently taking four classes: Sociology 300, Philosophy 350 (Philosophy of Religion), English 300, and Nutrition 300. Yes that totals up to 12 units. I am a full time student and I am trying desperately to keep up with all my work. I have a midterm due on Wednesday that I was privileged to take home with me this week, and I have a midterm on Wednesday night for my philosophy class. School is not my favourite part of my life. I will tell you that much right now. I would rather not be taking so many classes but it was kind of a requirement if I wanted to keep living at home.

Work is equally as insane as college. I am desperately attempting to work as many hours as possible and still keep up with my school work. I recently decided to ask for training in other areas in the store so that I will be able to work even more hours than I already am. Yes, this is going to cost me allot more sleep than I am already loosing. I am currently only getting 6 hours of sleep a night. And that is only if I'm LUCKY to get that much. Work drama bugs the hell out of me. I'm not going to lie. I get really sick of it really fast and it just stresses people out for no reason whatsoever. I'm determined to not stress over it though because people can say and think what they wish about me, but that's not going to change any portion of reality. Yes, I have only recently come to this realization but God knows I'm happy I finally realized it. =D

Love? You know I always include a paragraph about love. It's just a major part of my life that I feel shows allot about who I am as a person. Of course I'm going to tell people about what shows the most of who I am. Love is a word that I think I didn't fully understand until just recently. I know I have written about it in the past and I only wrote to the extent of my knowledge of what it truly means. According to Merriam Webster Online, ( love is:

1 a (1): strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties (2): attraction based on sexual desire : affection and tenderness felt by lovers (3): affection based on admiration, benevolence, or common interests b: an assurance of love 2: warm attachment, enthusiasm, or devotion 3 a: the object of attachment, devotion, or admiration b (1): a beloved person : darling —often used as a term of endearment (2)British —used as an informal term of address

I don't think this definition even comes close to defining what love in it's truest, most complete form consists of. Love is the willingness to forfeit ones own existence for another. It is a bond that throws all sense of selfishness and conceitedness out the window. It is as if all of one's own ambitions no longer matter but it is the happiness of the one whom he or she loves that is the most important thing in the entire world. If you ask me if I speak from experience my only response is that of a simple word: Yes. I do speak from experience. Now this is not to say that love couldn't be even more than this, but it is to say that I have finally understood love to this extent.

So this is my life as of the past few months. Mind you, this is an extremely short summarizing of my life. I will try to keep you more updated in the future. It will just depend on the time I have to myself so that I can write this blog. As of today however, this is all for the world outside my window.

Remember always,
Vivo Amare Imparare