Head Over Heels In The Moment

"Now I'm speechless over the edge, I'm just breathless, I never thought that I'd catch this love bug again. Hopeless, head over heels in the moment, I never thought that I'd get hit by this love bug again."

Catchy isn't it? I swore I'd never like the Jonas Brother's or their music but those lyrics are definitely doing well to represent me right now. "head over heels in the moment." Anyone who has seen me lately has to be blind not to have noticed that I'm going absolutely crazy living in the moments that keep coming my way.

Have you ever realized how addicting it can be to just put it all out on the line and risk everything? Once you start it's thrilling and not something that is easy to let go of.

So, I suppose other than the "love bug" theme to that song, the living in the moment part is doing very well at representing what I've been keeping myself busy with. I started my own business which is both exciting and nerve wracking all at the same time. I'm stressing over what I need to do to get it off the ground and start growing it. I'm selling Nutrilite vitamins and supplements as well as Artistry make-up, LOC, SA8, and Satinique products. Everything is going into construction mode right now as I go through the steps of training myself, building a website, and starting sales. It's a good thing to have a business in the health and beauty fields right now, no doubt, but it's really difficult getting yourself out there and promoting what you're doing. the term "cut throat" business comes to mind. I really love what I'm doing, and working for myself is the best feeling in the world. I don't have anyone to answer to except Big Brother, but now days who doesn't have to do that; well, with the exception of the mafia and the mob.

So everything is on the line with this. If it's not a sucess then it's going to be a disaster; no two ways about it. I'm trying to make enough time to keep posting updates but if I'm not around for a while, my appologies. Life is crazy, hectic, stressful, and still a lot of fun.

Stress is what I thrive on. And from where I'm sitting, it's all that I can see in the world outside my window.

vivo amare imparare
-Hannah

CHANGE

Change is a terrifying word sometimes isn't it? The mere word signifies something that almost everyone fears, at least to some point. Just hearing that something is going to change sends people's heart rates through the roof; pulses sky rocket, and tempers flair. Just because something is changing though doesn't mean it's always a "bad" thing though of course. But, how often do we hear the word without immediately thinking of something bad that may happen? Not often.

So, speaking of change, my life is changing like crazy right now. Here's the deal, I'm now out of place in the work world. Oh yes, it's quite true. I quit my job on Thursday and my last day is going to be next Saturday. If the fact that I am now unemployed isn't terrifying in and of itself, I also have zero prospects for a new one. I'm trying to get a job at Starbucks; I'm trying to get a job at different restaurants; I'm trying to get a job at the river this summer. It's scary crap my friends. I hate not having a job. One of my great friends just got fired too, so, at least I have someone to mourn with right? heh, right.

Oh, next on the list, I adore being single most of the time OK, but lately it's been becoming a major pain in the neck! Everywhere I go I have friends trying to set me up with different guys, I have a ton of guys I know asking me out because they know I am now single, and I really do not enjoy turning people down. Having a significant other really does relieve some of the stress because being off the market can be really relaxing. Getting back into the game can be traumatizing too, no lie. I don't like being some object or prize to be won. It's disgusting.

At last, my list of things to accomplish in the next few months:

#1. Find a new job. (in the next few weeks)
#2. Find a really great guy. (giving that quite a few months)
#3. Learn how to play guitar. (give that more than a few months)
#4. Learn to speak Spanish. (who wants to take bets on if that will actually happen?)
#5. Write a new song. (And actually record it)
#6. Forget about the past as much as I can. (it's already happening believe it or not)
#7. Lose 15 more pounds and look amazing for summer (oh yes, it's happening)
#8. Get A's in my classes this semester (well on my way)
#9. Travel this summer. (Palm Springs, Washington; just a couple on the list)
#10. LOVE.

So that is my short short list of things I want to get done in the next few months (or so) and I am going to mark them off this summer as I go. There will be an update in a short time in which I will tell how many things I accomplished.

For now, I need to go get ready to leave. Oh what a busy busy life I have.

Stress, it's what pushes us to live; to love; and to learn.

As Always,
Vivo Amare Imparare
-Hannah

Time Management

So I was on my way home today and as I was driving down the road a string of thoughts went through my mind, that led to this blog.

First, I saw all these cars on the road and thought to myself, 'ahh gosh I hate traffic! I'm never going to get home on time!' Then I thought, 'where are all these people coming from and heading to?' Then as I thought about it I thought about how they are like ants. Seriously now, I am not just saying this. They rush back and forth between home, work, dinner, taking family to various places they need to be, and do they ever stop and just think about how most of it is just insignificantly stressing them out?

I mean come on people! Do we ever stop to think? Do we think about where we are going and what we are doing and above all do we EVER come to the conclusion that it is not as important as we want to make it? Now hear me out. Ladies, is that major sale at the mall really worth yelling at your family to make them get ready in time so you won't be late? Guys, is that basketball game really worth getting in a fight with your family just so they will leave you alone so you can watch it?

My point is this alright: When does being responsible and busy with the important things of life turn into this overboard, unsensible rush to make it through the day?

I think that if people would ever take the time to just stop, rewind the tape, and look at their life in slow motion, they might, possibly, hopefully start to realize that slowing down could be a better, more responsible way to live.

Honestly people, if you just take the time to get your thoughts together, (yes, you do have thoughts in your head even though you try to push them out of there as much as possible.) you would see what things really are the most important. Like, family, friends, the people in your life who love you. Yes yes, even your boyfriend or girlfriend; they are more important than that sale or basketball game right? If you don't think so, then re-read this blog because you need to get your priorities straight.

Another thing. Why do we insist that every second, of every minute of our day be filled with something to do? What would happen if we just relaxed? What would happen if we sat down and read a book? I shall clarify that last example; a book that we are not assigned to read for a class. Now do not take what I am saying as an excuse for being lazy and not doing the important things in your life. But understand me; I do not think people should go through every day without taking time slow down, maybe even stop, and enjoy what they have accomplished.

Anyway, this is just some stuff I was thinking about today. I didn't put a ton of thought into it but I wanted to say it just incase it would do anyone any good.

And that's just the world outside my window.

As always,

"vivo amare imparare"

Hannah